Scraps

2024

Yesterday you told me
Not to worry, all is well
The stars in my eyes
Made it difficult to truly see
Their light was not mine
To quell

Yesterday I secretly
Decided it was up to me
The we would live happily
On the bedrock of the sea
My eyes would shine
The way for me
And you would come
So eagerly

But today
the light is gone
I could blame you
But its all for naught
Its cold and its dark
And I realized it always was

Today I went out to the sea
Not to worry, all is well
The stars have fallen
And I cant see
You are gone now, thankfully

The waves hit the cliffs
And rang in my ears
Reminding me
Im still alive

2022

Dont tell me you like coffee
I already know what youre going to say
Youd say:
Id like to order an affogato
And smile like you know something
Others dont

Dont tell me you like coffee
If you like coffee
We may have to study for hours
In a crowded shop
I might have to order tea
Because I cant stomach a strong pour

In fact, if you like coffee
I might buy you a French press
And fresh beans
To settle your snobbishness

So dont tell me you like coffee
Your drink isnt special
Our time is wasted
The beans arent roasted
And youre a piece of shit

2021

At night I dust the eaves of my life
Those bleached boards
Only a spider would care
Unraveling their webs I see snatches
Of magnificent delusional truths
The kind only the broken
Would eagerly drink in to explain
That inexplicable sorrow
The silk serves me too
It tightens over my heart, my throat
Settling in my lungs
Sleep does not bring me dream nor nightmare
The soft psychosis of another life
My waking world spun at the end of an unseen beast

2020

I saw a raven today
All black and blue brilliance
A beastly seal of my fate

For many a raven means death
For me, a new breath

I saw a raven today
I saw a raven today
I saw a raven today
I saw a raven today
I saw a raven today
I saw a raven today